My Habibi

My habibi that's who you will always be to me 

Short lived loved it was my habibi 

A paradise we found without the need of building one 

We lived a dream many only dream about 

The love that was not at first site became everlasting 

I adored and admired you just as you obsessively loved me 

I cherished you in turn you  protected me from the world and from its demons 

The paradise sunlight shined upon us endlessly

Our relationship my habibi weathered all storms 

My habibi, little did we know the end was nigh  

Little did I know darkness would fall upon us and taint our eternal love; for your sunlight became no longer 

Your protection shielded my heart no longer 

Your admiration of me turned into toxicity 

Your toxic internal world began to unravel right in front of you and I 

Your physical being, once adorned and admired by me was replaced by a demon, you once protected me from;

Your physicality expressed itself in foreign tongues which could not be cured by exorcists 

Your loving words, which once warmed my hear turned to bitterness and churned my stomach. Each word you spat hit my aching heart and burnt like acid 

The storms which once belonged to nature no longer belonged to nature; instead you inhaled the storms and threw one hail stone at time towards my way

You, my shield were no longer, instead you gravitated toward a volcano, and enjoyed dragging me towards your burning lava   

My habibi that you were 

Now and again I cry a silent cry and think about what was and could have been 

My habibi for eternity we were meant to be 

Little did we know you ....