I want you to miss ME

I want you to feel 

I want you to see 

I want you to know 

I want you understand 

I want you to feel, see, know and understand what it feels like 

Feelings of me and what it means to be me

What it means to let go off a loved and precious jewel  

What it feels like to no longer have a comforter or pacifier 

I want you to feel what it would be like

What it feels like to be unsupported and over powered

What it feels like to contain a million tears including yours without exploding 

What is feels to want to cry, but being unable to cry

What it feels like to want to run to someone, even you but not having anyone there to listen to you or hug you to sleep 

I want you to know what missing me feels like

What it means to be without me

What it means to call out for help and no one comes to support you 

What it means to finally call out for help and for you to not be there 

What it has meant to protect, sacrifice, shield you without a second thought or expectation of gratitude 

I want you to miss me, so you can see me, 

So you can understand what it means to be me

So you can eventually understand what it means to be me

I want you to miss me, so you can see me, know me, and feel me 

I want you to miss me