I felt your sprit leave me

I awoke with a sadness on a gloomy day.
For some reason, I awoke with the feeling and need to be creative.
I dragged myself to my table by the window with spectular views of my little seaside town.
There I sat with this diary in front of me, along with a blank art book starring at me screaming out for me to scribble something.

Although I was driven with the feeling to write, there I sat starring at this blank page.
My mind was a blank page.

There you crept as a cold chilled days breeze.
I felt you through my back, then felt the hair in my arms rise.
Thereafter, I felt the cold chilled air sweep through me
I sat numb to this sensation which I could not explain nor express
I let this feeling sensualise through my body, like a familiar friend

The blank memory and book, now had a vivid story to tell
You were there in that moment with me
You had come to rescue me from deep sadness
You had felt it was time for us to finally part
You lifted the pressure off my heart and I felt it leave me

How could I let you go, after 10years?
In this moment, I felt free will
Your presense in silence had a maginitude of meaning, which I did not need to articulate.
You were there in spirit.

To this day, I cannot alter nor express the experience
All I know it was the day you came to me and showed me in physical form that I had to let you go.

I now feel at ease
No longer do I feel sadness nor do I yearn for you, in sadness
What I feel and see now is you; adorable and handsome you
I remember you and those memories are warm
I adored and loved you too much that in passing I could not let you go

Forerver loved E.S.
 May your soul rest in peace sweet prince