Stuck like Glue

It's strange how life turns out 

Not quiet sure which stage or phase this turning point in life is 

It's appears to be a truly testing time

Few seconds ago, let go just like that 

Upon letting go, deep feelings of emotional pain arched out into the forefront 

Sense of relief yet still with pain expelled ; followed by some sense of freedom 

Tears followed with a sigh of relief 

Followed by feelings of nostalgia;  feelings of missing home

Confusion crept in, questioning where home was

In mind and through the aching heart, and visualisation of the ideal,  home symbolised family. Heartache spoke and foretold  the truth; home meant being with family. Alas oceans spoke and jilted this dream back  into reality;  " Atlantic Seas stood between heartache's longing and sense of belonging." 

See life is testing with its tremendous waves  filled with uncertainty 

One can only describe this stage  at this point in time as toxic with no immediate bleaching cure- 

Thus, for now stuck with endless complaints of self-pity,  anger, followed by being careless to not caring nor sense of guilt to feelings of emptiness and solitude 

The careless to not caring becomes an infliction to inflict oneself then onto others without a second thought 

For the soul at this point in time and stage in life is dead and soulless 

So one begins to wonder, where is the will and is there an outlet to this entrapment ? 

Stuck like glue, only can't become unstuck just yet