I want to cry

Funny thing is I want to cry 

I feel the urge for the need to cry 

I feel the raw emotions creeping up 

Alas, yet again I cannot cry 

So I stand there starring at the mirror instead

I am beyond crying and hysterical,- amused into laughter 

Wouldn't it be great just to be able to let go and cry? I wonder 

There are moments when I think and feel that if I cried, then I would be able to let go. 

Today, I felt an AHA moment- of freedom to  be, to let go and release the internal into floods of tears 

Not so, the moment fell short 

The emotional jolt stopped halfway  and nothing happened 

I look forward to the day when my flow is no longer interrupted 

Perhaps its fear? 

Perhaps it's only one of the remaining things I have left to hold onto ?

After-all,the deep pain and sorrow is gone 

So if I cry then perhaps, I will have lost yet again another piece of you 

I still want to cry, yet to cry ALAS