Death Anxiety

There are so many things which become more apparent and transparent through the infliction of death anxiety 

1) Life becomes redefined into mindfulness and meaningfulness 

2) The heart becomes consumed with sorrowful and everlasting pain with a void which can never be replaced 

3) The things that once appeared significant become meaningless and just minor obstacles to true living 

4) The daily norms of normality, "dress up to show-work assembly line," becomes even questionable on the purposefulness 

5) Friendships are tested with some trials and tribulations and only the true souls turn up to rescue one from the sinking ship. A light is shown on false friendships, strength prevails and propels one to the true souls

6) Risk tasking becomes the authentic way of being for there is no longer time to waste 

7) Tomorrow no longer matters, maximising today becomes more important. For tomorrow never comes 

8) Doubts are replaced with assurance and certainties of MUST and WILL 

9) True appreciation of family becomes even more present 

9) The longing, needing and aching for the one now deceased becomes a daily battle to learning how to live without 

10) Food, drink, weather, physical and emotional being, social communication become sustenance and substitutes to suppress or alleviate the aching soul temporarily

The death anxiety is not the fear of death. It is the heightened deep appreciation of death, and the knowing that there is no eternity to any soul on earth. 

The death anxiety is the peeling of yet another layer of oneself; the re-learning of how to live yet again without an extra soul on this earth 

Death anxiety, is internal conflict between needing freedom from pain, yet not wanting the pain to disappear; for if pain disappeared so would true existence and appreciate death 

By CFM_210315