Pumped with Adrenaline

Sometimes I am pumped with adrenaline, like this moment Just stopped in the middle the promenade whilst walking, on my way home Stood facing the ocean with the breeze of the ocean blowing gently in my face and hair. I am reminded of how sea is the best of nature; calm and wild at the same time. It's roaring presence has made me standstill to the traffic of my life. Listening to the radio, a song with the chorus, "my mind is like a jungle" is playing in the background. The repetitive words in the chorus, has made me stand still. How authentic is this moment and descriptive of my current mind frame A senior citizen in glasses with a wind braker coat, just walked towards me, through me and past me. Felt him looking straight at me through his dark sunglasses.Felt him creep into my unsettled and heightened soul Words to describe my current state: calm externally, anxious and heightened inside. Tracing back my steps to this morning. I woke up early and ready to go, ready to start the day early So I did and my day till now has been on the go till the end, but it's only early evening my social life will take its own precedence soon My working day consisted of reading a report on the train Followed by proof reading various reports , analysing data etc..... On the go, had to be on the go Then followed by a few interruptions by "office people," asking questions or further clarification on certain matters I responded and provided the correct answers, but I was not immersed in their word fully. I wanted them to hasten their story straight to the point, so I could get on with it. For I was busy- my computer screen display and desk clutter said it all. Plus my opening sentence with a smile- followed by I am in the middle of finalising a report, and a few more hints during the conversation. all these subtle hints should have been sufficient right? Nope they carried on with their 'complex issues' which I needed to solve immediately then and and there. For their world too was heightened and I fitted in their jigsaw of fixing it-so they felt inclined to tell me their issues in detail Then a few emails popped up with additional alerts of other "office people'" needing and wanting my immediate attention, and yes on a Friday. In the midst of it all, I completed tasks outlined in my calendar turned goals from Red to Green: and felt a sense of achievement. Yes to me Then I proceeded to drawing circles of processes and structures. Ideas kept flooding in and unraveled right before me during a meeting. Yes to me again genius, moment right? Winding back to an earlier time. This meeting entailed getting on the train again, me eating during the few minutes I had on this journey. Then onto me trying to switch off the professional world; by scanning through personal emails. Then back to scanning through paper work in preparation for the next meeting End result of the meeting, great. Yes to me, yet again. Mind you these yes moments do not come very often, usually caught in fire fighting processes Now I am left still feeling high on energy and heightened (3 cups of coffee may not have helped) I am left feeling I do not want to just be an ideas person, only now I have to apply the models I drew and make them come to life, and not flush my ideas down the idealess world I am left feeling like an achiever for the day. I exerted myself to the max and prioritised accordingly and blocked out the office traffic. Made the point I need to get on with it Now can I exert the same CAN DO spirit in my personal life, this evening or days to come????? Watch this space First of all, i must acknowledge i stopped my life and wrote this script. That's a start, right? An older lady just walked towards me, through and past me. Her piercing eyes cut straight through me and into my heart. I felt her look through me and chills crept through to my spine. I am reminded yet again by looking at her, how life is so precious Moral of this story, I lived the day as though every second mattered and achieved and saw end results. At the end of the day, I feel as though I lived fully Now I just need to apply the same consistent model and energy to my personal life, after all professional jobs do come to an end and someone can replace me easily I need to achieve personal goals that bring personal rewards and success Those who walked towards me, through me and past me, I connected with you for a reason. You reminded me of my soul, of how life is precious and prompted me to stop, to take a second and reflect back to me through your eyes ...…